Start A New Life. Start It Over.

I think I'll start a new life. I think I'll start it over. Where no one knows my name.

I guess lately I have felt a sense of not-fitting in. Not in a social aspect. But in a more personal way. I don't feel like I belong. And I was sitting in Spanish, listening to music (yea that's how I roll). And a song named Boston starts playing. The song is about starting a new life - and when I listened to this; I literally got Goosebumps - kind of like a heads up from God saying "listen up". I'm not sure if I am the only one who feels like they aren't themselves all the time. This song is about new beginnings. "I think I need a sunrise. I'm tired of the sunset" And that's exactly how I feel. Like I feel to comfortable not being myself that I haven't tried to be myself. Therefore not forgetting who I am, but just not in touch with who I am.

You know when your little "and you roll the dice of a game" and the results aren't what you wanted and you scream "DO OVER!" (or in my sisters case "my game my rules") But right now I wish I could just scream "DO OVER!!!!" And in this song it says


"I'll go to Boston...
I think I'll start a new life,
I think I'll start it over, where no one knows my name"


I guess I realized that through Christ I am a new creation ... I get a "do-over". I get a new chance to be a new person. I think I'll start a new life. Jesus gives us a chance to have a "do over" ... why don't we take it? Why do we keep saying "my game, my rules" when we are going to loose if we don't take the "do over"

in the light of the sun, is there anyone?

-Buddy B!!!!!!