Time To Stand

Gosh again with the country songs!!! I know.. I know. Haha. So I have really been struggling a lot and hurting a lot for a while now. I don’t think I have ever been on my knees in tears more then I have this past month. And this literally just happened to me, I was sitting here writing in my journal and listening to some music and I I start to listen to this Rascal Flats song called “Stand.” And it goes like this…

You feel like a candle in a hurricane
Just like a picture with a broken frame
Alone and helpless like you’ve lost your fight
But you’ll be alright, you’ll be alright

Cause when push comes to shove
You taste what you’re made of
You might bend ‘til you break
Cause it’s all you can take
On your knees you look up
Decide you’ve had enough
You get mad, you get strong
Wipe your hands, shake it off
Then you stand, then you stand

Every time you get up and get back in the race
One more small piece of you starts to fall into place – yeah

Honestly guys… that’s how I have been feeling. I was SO on fire for God I could feel it all… the goose bumps in worship, The “wow effect” when I saw an amazing sunrise. And then it was all gone and I had no idea what to do. I mean I still don’t really fully know what to do besides just follow him. And I feel like that candle in a hurricane. I feel like I’m struggling SO much to keep my fire alive, I feel alone and helpless like I’ve lost my fight. Ya know guys.. I have been bending so far in all directions and right when I feel like im about to break, I find just a little bit of strength to keep me going, have it be in a verse or in encouragement from a friend. God gives me a little something to keep going. I mean I know that all the things that i go through will make me stronger, yet sometimes I just wish that it wasn’t so painful. But every time I fall and every time my faith just gets to the plateau where I’m standing there going… “I’m doing everything I should be… I’m reading my bible I’m seeking you… what now God? What am I not doing?!” he meets me there, and shows me where to go next. And after its all said and done, another piece of me falls into place and I find out more and more who I am Christ.

by Lauren Huntley